Before I had even started taking notes to write this devotion, I read the following quote in a book. “GOD DOESN’T CALL THE QUALIFIED; HE QUALIFIES THE CALLED.”
In Exodus 4:10-12 it says, “Moses said to the LORD, “Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.” The LORD said to him, “Who gave human beings their mouths? Who makes them deaf or mute? Who gives them sight or makes them blind? Is it not I, the LORD? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.”
Many women, myself included, have the fear of not being good enough. As a teenager, it was the fear of not being pretty enough or skinny enough. As I became a mother and wife my fears grew. I was fearful of not being the best mother I could be. I worried if the things I had said and done would affect my children their whole life. I feared I wasn’t the wife I needed to be for my husband. I never thought I was good enough. The word “ENOUGH” seemed to always linger in the back of mind. You see I never realized I needed freedom from fear.
About two years ago I felt God was trying to tell me to go tell “My Story” to someone. I kept getting the urge to go speak to our pastor about my life. My whole body was filled with fear….fear of looking like I had completely lost my mind, fear of being judged, and fear of just sounding stupid. After months and months of continuing to pray and going to church, God gave me the strength to call up our pastor. When I finally did, he was doing a series on “Stories” and showed a glimpse of mine.
Months and months went by and I felt God wanted me yet again, to do more. Once again all the fears of doubt soared through my mind. This time instead of showing a video clip, I was going to speak from the pulpit on a Sunday morning. Even more doubt and fear came over me. I kept telling myself and God that I was not a public speaker, no one wanted to hear what I had to say, I was not good enough. I was so consumed with fear. After weeks of continually praying for God to give me strength, I was able to stand up for the first time in my life and speak to people.
By praying and being obedient to God, I was able to overcome my fears.
Fear still creeps in from time to time…but now I know that it is just Satan trying to keep me from doing the work of the Lord. My senses are heightened now that I know all those times I felt like I wasn’t good enough, it was just Satan blinding me with fear.
Just this past week I felt God wanted me to do something, so I did it. After doing it I questioned myself. I was so fearful that I looked stupid doing it. It consumed my mind for two days straight, for a brief second I questioned whether I should go to Youth Camp as a leader or not. In that moment I realized Satan had planted the seed of fear and doubt…and in that same moment God told me I was to use that feeling of fear to write this devotion.
The next time you start to feel inadequate, fearful or have doubt…just stop and pray for God to clear your mind, remove all fear, & remind yourself that you are HIS. You are ENOUGH!
God has promised me that I am free of all fear and doubt.
Heavenly Father, thank you for this reminder that you are bigger than my fears, bigger than my doubt. Thank you for freeing me from the grip of fear in my life! How wonderful you truly are. Today is a fresh start, with the reminder that with you I have no reason to fear what is ahead of me. Let my attitude be filled with boldness to spread your love to all those I come in contact with today.